This morning, I had the stark realization that I might never own a home. If you recall, that was one of the five things on my Must Do list.
I’ve been slowly dealing with that realization for awhile now, but during a conversation this morning, it really hit me like a ton of bricks. Surprisingly, I wasn’t all that disappointed by the idea. In some ways, it was quite freeing because it lessens the Sisyphus feeling I’ve been having in the face of student loan debt. Knowing that the likelihood of successfully rolling that rock up the hill is rather nonexistent stops me from making it such a priority. Now I can be free to live my life, pay by bills, and if along the way, the opportunity for home ownership presents itself, so be it, but if not, I’ll still be okay.
I’ve lived in the house I’m renting for the past eight years and I still have storage boxes tucked away in corners because I’ve always looked at this house as temporary. My bedroom walls are bare. There are still a few unpacked boxes in my study. I have a stash of “this will look great in my perfect house” pieces that are still waiting to be framed and displayed. For the past couple of months, I’ve been very focused on making my house feel more like a home. I’ve started to unpack boxes. I’ve taken a slew of items to the framers and will slowly start getting them in the house over the next month. (Thank goodness for the twice yearly 50% coupon!) There are things that I’ve always wanted for my home that I’m actively seeking to purchase. This Coke cooler was the first.
Man, this thing is too cool! I’ve always wanted a Coke machine for my house. This electric cooler was a compromise on space and price. I can use this as storage, which is important since my house is sorely lacking in that area.
Instead of hoping for the future, I’m choosing to live in the now. I’m focusing on building my happy place and I’m loving every minute of it.